hhhhhheeeeeeeeeelllllllllllllpppppppppppp mmmmmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I have done nothing as far as workouts in 4 days. Bluck. I feel frumpy and grumpy. As soon as I stop working out, counting calories and watching what I eat I end up back where I started and I do not want that to happen again. I have had a busy week but that is no excuse. I told myself that if you want this to happen, you need to make it happen. That means fitting it into your schedule as a priority and making sure people know that you need to go to the gym or the pool or hit the Elliptical and whatever else is going on can wait. But after family visits, halloweening, parties, and movie rentals the work out has been slipping further and further down the priority list.

I fear another back slide and that really scares me. I know that 4 days without working out does not equal backslide, but it's not just that I haven't worked out. It's also that I feel unmotivated and apathetic about it now. I still want to lose weight and look good, but that drive, that determination is fading and I want it back.

So, what do people do when they hit this kind of dry period in their journey? Why are some athletes able to maintain years and even decades of regular fitness and not ride this rollercoster that the rest of us seem to be on of our fat highs and our skinny lows? I need to answer to these questions. I need to tap into what it is that athletic people have that I don't. Maybe I'll never be an athletic person with ripped arms and the ability to do regular push ups. Maybe some people are just able to obtain that and others are not?

I bet I would feel differently if my results were more dramatic, but after six weeks and only 4 (maybe 5) pounds of weight gone, I feel I'm grasping for some hope to hold onto and keep this journey alive.

Weight today: haven't even checked
Workout: debating if I should do something right now
Feeling: see above