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I'll admit it, I'm stuck in a slump and am in need of some major motivation and breakthrough. I'm back on Herbalife shakes and replacing two meals a day, but my snacks are probably considered small meals that completely negate the work of the shakes. I can't even really say how much I'm losing on Herbalife these days because my weight is different every day; and not just a little, it's up two pounds, down three, up a pound, up another pound, down two pounds....I have no idea what's going on.

However, this nicer weather is helping a bit, and as shorts and tank top season approaches I'm starting to feel a greater need to shed at least the next 10 pounds. So I'm committed to swimming once a week and 30 minutes on the Elliptical three times a week as well as my herbalife shakes twice a day. Hopefully that will be enough to get me moving in the right direction again. I did 25 minutes on the Elliptical last night and couldn't believe how much better I felt after that. You gain some confidence in yourself and some energy too. Greg says its affirming to him and boosts his confidence that his wife works out and wants to take care of herself. I like making him feel good so that's just added motivation.

So instead of setting up new goals that I seem to fail at, and subsequently feel disappointed in myself, I'm simply going to "commit" to this healthier lifestyle and "commit" to exercising and eating right. Goals are great for some things in life, but not for exercise (at least not for me). Even if I hit my "goal" weight I'll start gaining it back because I'll feel like "hey, I did it and now I'm done". But instead maybe committing to living well and exercising will mean the weight will come off and when my body is at a healthy weight it will stop? I dunno...

Well, here's to my new goal to commit....or something like that.

Weight today: 167-166-168-165-166
Feeling: ugg